Party favor....

So, i just got back from one of the first summer parties. It wasn't anything big just some people getting together to hang out. The cool thing about this party, is that I met SOMEONE! They are seriously the coolest person I have met this year. We had an instant connection with so many things in common. The funny part about the whole situation is that it is a girl. No, I am not becoming a lesbian! I know that is the first thing that came to everyone's mind. I do think that this could be the beginning of a beautiful friendship though. We are a seriously scary match. I think perhaps we could be twins switched at birth. Shes a tomboy that plays rugby, likes action movies, camping, and wants a motorcycle! I had so much fun getting to know her. In fact, we started talking about martial arts and we made an appointment tomorrow to go to this brazilian ju jitsu place and sign up for lessons together! I am so glad I went to this party. Its just ironic that I went to a party and found a girl I want to get to know better, instead of a boy. After a while, I started to get very depressed though. She reminded me so much of what I USED to be like, it really brought to my attention how much I have changed. And I dont think it is for the better. Its like I'm the evil twin, or the cynical/worldly version. That really struck me. So at 3 a.m. when I got back to my apartment I stood in the grass at the complex in silence looking up at the stars in the clear night and I made an oath to myself....
then the sprinklers went off...