I'm slipping away....

...I don't like to see so much pain
so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive
And all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside...
-In Your Eyes, Peter Gabriel



Take a hint... if you want...

Wonderwoman

I think its time I dust off those go-go boots, and the spandex shorts. You can call me "wonderwoman". Cause I am probably taking on more than any normal woman/college student could. I just got a second job at Chilis here in Norman as a hostess. So now I'm working at the library, hostessing at chilis, going to school full time, and at the start of a new relationship....and at night I save the world dressed as a hooker...so watch out WORLD! Here I come! I mean I could so pull of the wonderwoman costume. I got the black locks, the muscles, and the winning smile!

First Day of Chilis:
They made me watch 2 hours of training videos, on top of leaving me practically alone to hostess without any prior knowledge. I'm serious about that...they gave me a radio ear piece and some menus and shoved me in the front. I guess the best way to learn is to do it. I'm pretty exhausted now. Gotta wake up early to go to my other job. I will update again soon. I'M OFF TO SAVE THE DAY!

Dead Campus

Dead Campus Corner

So, on Saturdays here at OU- especially on holiday weekends- campus is dead. While I was driving Sarah and I to work this morning she shared with me that sometimes she likes to pretend that she is in the 28 Days Later (zombie) movie, and see how long it takes before she actually comes across someone. I just happen to play this game myself quite often. So, if anyone were to ever want to film a movie about the earth completely being taken over by zombies and needed the streets deserted, then just go to campus before 9 on a Saturday. You wouldn't even need to inform anyone that filming was taking place, because there is NO ONE AROUND! So, you maybe asking, "why the hell are you up when the whole world is still sleeping?" Cause the library, and the union are open on weekends, even though students never come in.
I am applying for a job as a hostess at Chilis for a second job. Thanks to Laura, I'm already to the second interview. I also am going to apply once again at our Apartment complex to see if I can get a resident assistant job, and get rent paid for. That would be a major load off my shoulders! Please pray that I get it. I'm really struggling to pay for everything as an independent.
Good luck to Laura and Gerard this weekend. She is bringing him home to MEET THE PARENTS, well, that and the scary protective older brother. You have balls my man. I hope everyone has a happy Easter! And remember, if any of you guys have to stay in Norman this weekend instead of being with your family, call me up on Sunday. We are having a 'reject' dinner, and would love to have everyone. haha. (405)401-6492.

Count down to opening of movie SIN CITY: 1 Week
Count down to opening of Star Wars Episode III: 54 days

So....Tired....

So this week has been exhausting. I supposed it's just getting back into the swing of things. I finally got to see Jon last night for an hour or so. He and laura talked the majority of the time about frat and sorority politics, while I studied for a nutrition test. *sigh, what a way to spend the evening with your boyfriend. but tonight i get to see him in a suit, so it makes up for it all. I am so tired. At this moment I am struggling to form complete sentences. I dont remember when I finally went to bed, but it seemed like right after I shut my eyes, the alarm went off. Actually, that could have been plausible. I didn't sleep well. This morning in the car on the way to work I nearly ran a red light, but caught myself in the middle of the intersection. Sarah was in the car with me, and just laughed. Yes, I am that tired....the only explanation I can give is that maybe I had been sitting there for too long and decided it should be my turn to go...? Its good that hardly anyone besides Sarah and I get up that early. Today will be a long, boring day, filled with alone time working in the library, applying around town for a second job, and class from 6-9 in which I have a test. Then I will run over to Jon's to fulfill my duty as a good girlfriend. Thank goodness I dont have class till 12:30 on Fridays!
Easter is this Sunday, and for the first time I will not be spending it with my family. My mother won't get back from the cruise until sunday evening, and my father from colorado that day as well, so whats the point. Gas is too high just to needlessly drive back and forth from Owasso to Norman. Sarah has planned a little Easter dinner, since we will be alone. So, if anyone lacks a family and a place to go on Sunday, come by the apartment. ALL are WELCOME!

AND WE'RE OFF!

So the break ended...not that I had much of one. But none the less, classes have resumed, and I am already tired of them. The weekend was great, until it neared the end. It wasn't just because we all knew of the impending doom of classes starting back, but I had a little bit of a problem.
There are two different types of journals- this one- which I allow anyone who's willing to take the time to read it, access. Then there is a special and very personal one that I keep in my room on paper. One that contains very emotional/embarrassing things I would never want anyone to read. Just thoughts, poems, gripes, gossip. Surely a person with any conscience at all, would never think of reading something like that, right? Well, I wont name any names, but curiosity got the best of someone dear to me and almost destroyed all trust they might have gained. Now, I'm sure you are asking, "why is that such a big deal." First of all, its my personal property, secondly its a journal, thirdly I specifically told them not to look at it, and last but not least, I have it tied closed with a ribbon and things written all over it such as "DONT OPEN" to clear up any confusion. Its similar to if someone had the ability to listen to your thoughts, wouldn't you feel violated? But, since I'm such a forgiving and humble person ;) I found it in my heart to let it go. PLEASE DONT MAKE ME REGRET MY DECISION!!

In other news, Jon and I are official as of Monday. Too bad, I dont get to see him until the end of the week...I'M SO HAPPY!

FORT WOODS

I decided, mostly out of pure boredom, to make my entire livingroom a fort of blankets. So, with the help of Jon (my architect), i turned a dreary livingroom into a blanket wonderland. We have been on a childlike kick lately. i.e. building forts and today we went to the zoo! It was so much fun! I highly encourage getting in touch with the children inside all of you. It has been fun this weekend!



Ft. Woods, Norman, OK. ;)

*exhales*

I am well! I feel great! Today is a wonderful day. Its amazing how much more you appreciate things after being cooped up for so long, and sick. Thank you for this wonderful day! Everyone smile! Enough love to go around I promise! *kiss *hug

Now, what do I have to do to get yall to come back to me here in Norman?

The hot tub and pool are heated and ready for action! *giggle

Lady luck has left the building....

Since no one reads my blog anymore, I'm going to take the liberty to rant. So, I have determined that no one's weekend/start of spring break has been as CRAPPY as mine. I have the flu. Yes, I feel horrid. To make matters worse, I was supposed to be in two places at once. Jon, the guy i have been dating seriously, invited me to go to his lake house this weekend down in Texas. Oh I wish I could have gone. But I had already given my word that I would judge an Odyssey of the Mind competition in Owasso, So, I turned him down. But the absolute worse part of all this is that I couldn't go to EITHER! I can barely manage to sit up much less do anything. I'm stuck in this apartment....alone....all of break....cause I'm working next week too...and I'm sick....

To put the icing on the cake....the one time I decided to go out today to get myself some more soup and ginger ale (pretty much all i have kept down for the past couple of days) and I trip on the curb right outside and majorly role my ankle. Not just any minor - walk it off- sprain either. I couldn't even stand on it. I sat in the deserted parking lot, moaning slightly, and waiting it out. Then when my ankle went numb I hobled up the stairs. So I am really a crippled, apartment ridden, weakling now. Yes, you may feel sorry for me. I HATE YOU ALL! I am cursed or something. My luck has run out. I'm jinxed....accident prone....etc...<---pathetic.

Lady luck has officially left this building...

yes....Yes....YES!

I can't wait to see this.



The trailer was orgasmic. :) http://movies.channel.aol.com/franchise/exclusives/sin_city_movie

Oh, the full Star Wars Trailer is out now, but you have to be a bad ass to get it.

F-ing awesome!

U.S. bans "eyeball jewelry"
Some U.S. lawmakers want to make sure the twinkle in your eye doesn't come from jewelry.
Repulsed by a body modification offered at a Dutch institute ¡ª where tiny metal hearts and half-moons are surgically embedded in the whites of the eye ¡ª one lawmaker has proposed banning the practice in Illinois.
A House committee Thursday approved legislation that would make it a felony to implant jewelry in someone's eye. -www.chinaview.cn 2005-03-07 11:13:23

*Sigh....*

look at the Starting Line music video of "The Best of Me"

here.

Freudian Slip

Its in your best interest to listen when govern. professors make comments like the following:


"It doesn't matter how or where you get it from, as long as you get some." -Prof. Ellis

*Pause.* Did she say what i think she said? *The class bursts out in laughter.*

(she was refering to government in the media/news to anyone that is interested.)

;)

Broken Down...Just like my car.

I am so extremely tired. After sleeping relatively well this weekend. I'm back to the insomnia story. This is starting to get REALLY FRUSTRATING! I feel just so broken down. Like an old 80's make car, that starts after a good choking of the engine, and sputters around. I think I would probably have one of those nasty old chipped paint jobs, and maybe a broken window or duck tape holding up a bumper. Yeah, if I was a car, that would definitely be a discription of me. Things have, however, been on the gradual uprise. After another fight with a really close, and important person in my life i decided to let go. I wish I could have made a friendship work out of it, but they were just too judgemental of my life now without them, after they had such an impact on it for so long. I just can't have people that constantly drag me down in my life. Its a pity though, while I harbor bad feelings for the way they treated me in the end, I respect them for helping me through the hell that was my summer.
My heart is sore. I look back at all the high school friendships that have been lost, all the loves long gone, and the present condition of my relationships here, and I feel lost. *engine just stalled*. But there is a light at the end of my tunnel. I have been happier recently than I have in a long time. No more moping around in my room alone when Laura has her boyfriend over, and Sarah is on the phone with hers....I have my very own distraction. One that is warm and cuddly when appropriate, yet as strong as steel when appropriate. Hes like a generator to myself as a car. (okay enough with the car analogies.) Everyone needs that person that can look over at you while watching tv and say, "you are amazing," out of the blue. A person that you can stand with in the dark and hold, while the hours pass unknowingly....Okay enough with the icky sappy stuff. *grunts, i need a beer.
;)