Broken Down...Just like my car.

I am so extremely tired. After sleeping relatively well this weekend. I'm back to the insomnia story. This is starting to get REALLY FRUSTRATING! I feel just so broken down. Like an old 80's make car, that starts after a good choking of the engine, and sputters around. I think I would probably have one of those nasty old chipped paint jobs, and maybe a broken window or duck tape holding up a bumper. Yeah, if I was a car, that would definitely be a discription of me. Things have, however, been on the gradual uprise. After another fight with a really close, and important person in my life i decided to let go. I wish I could have made a friendship work out of it, but they were just too judgemental of my life now without them, after they had such an impact on it for so long. I just can't have people that constantly drag me down in my life. Its a pity though, while I harbor bad feelings for the way they treated me in the end, I respect them for helping me through the hell that was my summer.
My heart is sore. I look back at all the high school friendships that have been lost, all the loves long gone, and the present condition of my relationships here, and I feel lost. *engine just stalled*. But there is a light at the end of my tunnel. I have been happier recently than I have in a long time. No more moping around in my room alone when Laura has her boyfriend over, and Sarah is on the phone with hers....I have my very own distraction. One that is warm and cuddly when appropriate, yet as strong as steel when appropriate. Hes like a generator to myself as a car. (okay enough with the car analogies.) Everyone needs that person that can look over at you while watching tv and say, "you are amazing," out of the blue. A person that you can stand with in the dark and hold, while the hours pass unknowingly....Okay enough with the icky sappy stuff. *grunts, i need a beer.
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