When it rains it pours....(its raining men.)

So with the upcoming holiday certain things come to mind. My birthday is the first thing to be concerned about. I really do not like growing up. Every added year adds more responsibility. I think I am at my limit at the moment. Being independent of my parents is something I didn't think I would have to encounter just yet.

I feel old.

20 isn't all that old i suppose, but when I can recall turning the ripe age of 7 and crying because I thought it meant I had to retire all my toys and become an adult, it makes me a little depressed. I miss endless summers, worlds of imagination in my back yard, and LEGO empires.

Is that a grey hair? Crap.

The other issue that seems to have surfaced is the fact that all of a sudden, men seem to be coming out of the woodwork. After several months in a drought when it comes to men, they seem to be everywhere. Not just normal ones either, real keepers! I had been in this 'wear t-shirts everyday, no makeup, hair in a ponytail funk.' One day I decided to let my hair down, and open my eyes I guess. ;) I know exactly what they mean by the comment, "When it rains, it pours." This time, however, it seems to be raining men....and I'm drenched.

ANIMAL HOUSE!

I think these pictures say it all.




Yes, that is THREE men on MY bed...




Oh dear!

Rain, rain, go away......

That was taken outside on our porch. That was the only sunshine we've seen for like 5 days now. Its starting to get me down.

What am I to do with myself?

Oh dear, oh dear. So many great movies coming out in December.
Watch the Trailers:
Blade III; Trinity. 12/08/04 www.bladetrinity.com/

Oceans Twelve. 12/10/04 www.oceans12.warnerbros.com/

Meet the Fockers. 12/22/04 www.meetthefockers.com/

I can't wait to see them. Too bad it looks like poor ol' Mel will have to see them alone, considering that I will be stuck in Norman for Christmas Break working at the library through intersession. Happy Holidays to me. Dont know whether to be :), or :(.

When good people go bad...

This prooves how really dorky I am.



http://www.starwars.com
I watched it 4 times. And yes, I got goosebumps.


Me:

Funeral...

So no one laugh...
but my hamster, Chloe, died today. I'm upset cause I got attached, and I really liked her. For some reason I feel like I let her down. We had a burial at sea this afternoon. Its just feels weird. Like something is missing.


That is her little place on the table outside my room. Its seems so empty now. *tear

She was sweet tempered, cute, and loved to play poker. Yeah thats right, one night while we were playing poker, she was content to sit in the cup holder on my poker table most of the game and watch. She was the best hamster ever. So here's a tribute. ;)

CLosure.

I Laugh -

I parted my lips with a breath of a "no"
as you turned
and walked out the door.
I couldn't believe that you
had actually gone.

Dark clouds had blinded me for so long,
that the sun
was once only a faint memory.
My laughter was lost somewhere
in the past.

The person in the mirror
was no longer me.
To imagine that I was
once that stupid girl; who
thought that your leaving,
was my life ending;
I laugh.

And with those lips I smile,
to realize that it was
you, who let ME leave,
and that my life has just begun.

Friends in High Places

GOD, I have good friends!



Last night I had one of those break down moments. Guess who was there to pick me up?

Today is gloomy. Its really cold, windy, and rainy. The library isn't heated, so I'm sitting here freezing my buns off! Winter is following in this front's footsteps, and the Holiday season is in full swing. So...its poll time in honor of the election and the holidays. What is everyone's favorite holiday movie of all time?