"A real woman should own three items..."

Small business

2007-06-19T14:02:00.000-07:00

Here is a look at my hobby business.

Give me a comment if you want to order some.
$ 10.00 for plain picks.
$ 15.00 for beaded or charms.

Couple of music videos

2007-06-01T13:09:00.000-07:00

These videos had an impact on me. Should take a sec and check em out.

Nickelback

Rascal Flatts

Good stuff.

1st Anniversary

2007-05-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

This is a comment I stole from one of my high school friends' blog, the day after my wedding. It meant so much to me at the time, I wanted to keep it.

"I attended a wedding tonight of a dear old friend. I heard the words spoken again on how marriage is the extinguishing of each individuals light in favor of a unified light, living together for each other and no longer apart. I did not understand the literal representation of this idea until I talked to my friend after the ceremony and found her matured into an adult. In the matter of a day, she had grown up. No longer a youthful individual, but an adult living her life. The life of her adulthood."

Thanks Josh.

A look back:

The first year for Joe and I has definitely not been easy. Our first apartment in Norman was 500 square feet, one bed one bath, and couldn't even hold all our furniture and belongings, especially after Joe moved in after the wedding.
The honeymoon was amazing, I had never been anywhere. So to leave the country for the first time and go somewhere so beautiful with the man you love made this trip amazing.

Joe and I had school and work, this made for a difficult start to the marriage, and financially it was straining. Then Joe graduated and got a job and we moved into our first house and got our first car, Made an addition to the family, Evey. And the first year is over. That quick. For our anniversary on friday we had tickets to see CCR. Then I took off work on saturday and we went to the lake. Then we came home, got dressed up, and Joe took me to a steak dinner. Then the traditional eating of the leftover cake and champagne.

Here's to many more years.

Wreck

2007-05-15T13:15:00.000-07:00

So, I got in my first accident on thursday, and I'm just now feeling the effects.

I was driving down a two lane highway on my way into town to buy groceries. I was going to make a left hand turn onto a side street, and started to slow and turned on my signal. Then, just as I'm about halfway into the turn and barely in the next lane i get sideswiped and a car goes into the ditch ahead of me. SCARED ME TO DEATH, since there was no oncoming traffic, and the car seemed to come out of NOWHERE. I was going slow enough to pull somewhat controllably into the ditch after the turn. So, aparently this is what happened:

I'm minding my own business, driving the speed limit, slowing for a turn, with my blinker on. Then a girl, probably speeding, comes up behind me fast and decides to pass me. (I think she was on a cell phone, cause she was on it when she stepped out of the car) She doesn't notice my brake lights or signal and crashes into the side of me then into the ditch. She jumps out of the car and the first words out of her mouth are "Where was your blinkER!"
I say "It was on!" *bitch*( didn't say that, but thought about it)
THen when we hear sirens she asks if i'm okay. Which physically is true, but i'm freaked out.

The ambulance really wants to take me to the hospital, cause there was a mark from my seatbelt, and they think that I could have done something to my collar bone. But I'm too freaked out for that, and I deny it. She tells me I'm gonna have whiplash and be sore the next day, they take my vitals, and leave.

The kicker is that the cops give us both tickets!

WHat in the hell did i do wrong? "Improper Movement from Direct Course" was what he wrote me up for. Cause when she tells the officer that she didn't see brake lights or a turn signal, he checks my car and sure enough they aren't working. I had no idea they weren't working, and frankly i'm not convinced that they just didn't stop working after she creamed me in her POS.

So the officer only gives her a ticket for passing within 150 feet or something within an intersection, not for reckless driving or anything! The whole time he was oggling her, and giving her special treatment, and I find out she's a hooters girl.

So she thinks its my fault and starts taking a bunch of pictures of her POS which was already banged up, and probably wasn't worth $300 to begin with. Needless to say she messed with the wrong family. Seeing as my dad is an officer, and Joe's dad is a US attorney. If she starts something it will end with me.

GRRR!

Rough

2007-04-27T12:30:00.000-07:00

Things have been rough lately. My job is pretty demanding, especially since i'm the newbie. I end up doing my job and everyone elses side jobs. But I'm getting the hang of everything really quickly. I'm starting to get my groove working a section of eight booths. These past two weeks schedule-wise have been horrible, because i've been getting the crappy shifts. This means I work doubles, and seeing as FOUR people quit over the last week, there are a lot of open shifts. I've even been asked in to BARTEND! Which is interesting, because I have no bar experience up until now. But the majority of drinks bought are margaritas and those are premade, so only a couple of drinks I have to look up and figure out. But now that I know my way around in the bar, and I'm one of only a few people over the age of 21, I've become a workhorse to some people. I have to get their drinks for them, because they can't go behind the bar and we dont have a bartender during the lunch shift.

Last night was the worst.

Evey went to the vet yesterday. They said she had puppy hookworms. Pretty common, and gave me some pills to give her with dinner. All went well until Joe and I were just about to fall asleep. Evey made some interesting noises and I jumped up to discover she had vomited all over the carpet. The pills made her nauseated all night long. She figeted and wandered around all night and wouldn't sleep. Needless to say I finally got to sleep around 4 am. Then opened Peppers Grill this morning. I'm exhausted. Poor evey. No, Poorer Melody......

Grindhouse

2007-04-13T06:01:00.000-07:00

Well, Rodriguez and Tarantino have done it again. Joe and I went to see Grindhouse last night as our date night, since I will be gone all tonight and tomorrow with Odyssey of the Mind.

It was not to be expected. I had no idea what it was about on the way in there. But I came out satisfied. I give it a B. So if you like lots of gore, violence, Hot babes, Tarantino banter and dialogue, and outrageous storylines....this movie is for you.

I thought you might like and update on Evey, considering I post a picture almost everytime I write. She went to the groomers this week and got the standard schnauzer cut, its cute. She looks like a little english gentleman, I think. I've been joking with Robin for sometime about schnauzers looking like little gentlemen with beards, and how it would be funny if she had a little plaid sweater and a monacle. *giggle.
She makes you wanna say "hello govna," in that english accent.

Patience my girl

2007-04-10T06:52:00.000-07:00

May 4th here i come.

I feel like that episode of south park where Cartman is tired of waiting for the Wii to come out and decides to have himself frozen with Butters' help. That way Butters can just wake him the day it comes out.
*hmmm, it could work.....

Funny and cute!

2007-04-09T14:49:00.000-07:00

Sappy Stuff

2007-04-07T08:03:00.000-07:00

I am completely infatuated with my puppy. She is so adorable.

I'm afraid I've been spoiling her. She sleeps with Joe and I now, and follows me around everywhere. She is sitting at my feet this very second. But who couldn't love that face?

Joe and I are also completely addicted to tattooing now. I'm really wanting to either get my name or "beautiful song" written in cherokee someplace. Or add on to my hearts with something like this famous Lichtenstein image:

I talked Joe into liking this image of veronica lodge from the archie comics, I always wanted to be her, and I remember once someone at the chilis in Norman told me I looked like her. (yeah right) but i love it anyway.

He isn't sure about the colors yet. Cool eh?

I got a job at this restaurant in claremore "peppers". I like it well enough, and I'm better prepared since I worked at chilis. I should make pretty good money. I'm almost done with training, so If you are ever near there, stop by. I work most days.

Have a great Easter everyone. God Bless.

Live Free or Die Hard

2007-04-04T14:36:00.000-07:00

Trailer

cool!

Haha!

2007-03-30T09:59:00.000-07:00

Joke:
A woman was helping her husband set up his computer, and at the
appropriate point in the process, she told him that he would now
need to enter a password. Something he could remember easily and
will use each time he has to log on.

The husband was in a rather amorous mood and figured he would try
for the shock effect to bring this to his wife's attention.
So when the computer asked him to enter his password, he made it
plainly obvious to his wife that he was keying in....

P...
E...
N...
I...
S...

His wife fell off her chair laughing when the computer replied:

***PASSWORD REJECTED. NOT LONG ENOUGH

300 is amazing!

2007-03-17T17:12:00.000-07:00

So on friday night Joe and I went to see '300'. The Frank Miller graphic novel turned movie, like one of my favs 'Sin City'. It was absolutely amazing! The cinematography was absolutely beautiful. I felt like I was looking at artwork the entire film. The story line was wonderful, the actors wonderful, it was entertaining and inspiring. I love movies that make you want to rush out of the theater and change the world somehow.

Oh, and we bought one of these:

Not that it doesn't deserve more space in this blog topic, but I'm still kinda in shock about owning one to say anything.

Happy St. Patrick's day!

puppy crazy

2007-03-06T14:14:00.000-08:00

here are more pics

Evey

2007-03-05T10:42:00.000-08:00

Our puppy is adorable. I found this tennis ball outside and thought she might like it, but all she does is growl and bark at it. I wish this video had sound so you could hear, but at least you can see it. HAHA.

video

Its a GIRL!

2007-02-19T08:22:00.000-08:00

Joe and I are the proud parents of a baby girl.

Her name is Evey.

please dont let me get salmonella

2007-02-16T13:16:00.000-08:00

So apparently they are recalling Peter Pan and Great value brands of peanut butter. There is a salmonella outbreak all over the country assumed to be a result of the peanuts.

The article.

The jars with the number on the top starting with '2111' are at risk for contamination.

This is really freaking me out considering we just bought a great value brand jar of peanut butter the last time we were at the store and I ate some two days ago.

My cousin also has a jar, and Joe's parents.

PLEASE DONT LET ME GET SICK!

On another....happier....note, we have the bronco. Its almost like riding in a semi. Joe is hogging all the fun by driving it the past few days. ;)

We are also going to get a puppy. A little miniature schnauzer. I think we are going to pick it up tomorrow. I'm nervous. It seems that every pet I get dies on me. Its not that I dont take care of them, I think I just tend to find the sad sickly ones endearing and want to help them. Like my poor chloe. She was a chinese dwarf hamster that someone tried to take back to the pet store because the other hamster didn't like her and bit her tail off! Of course they wouldn't take her back and I over heard while looking around.

Anyway, I hope I'm a good mommy to a perfectly healthy little puppy. I've been reading articles all day about taking care of a puppy, safety tips, and such. Its a big step for Joe and me. I hope we can make her happy.

I beat HALO II the other day. DUDE, I'm a serious gamer. HAHA.

I dont think anyone reads this anymore. Except for my cousin, so HEY ROBIN, i had a great time with you coming down last weekend. Don't forget our home is always open for you to stay, especially with your 21st coming up soon. We will PAR-TAY! Love you.

Bronco woman

2007-02-05T09:03:00.000-08:00

So its decided. Joe's gonna give his buddy an offer on the bronco. It will soon be ours. My daily driver.

Its interesting my whole life I've wanted a bronco or a jeep. When my sixteenth birthday rolled around my father picked a civic for me. Mostly cause it was cheap and reliable. I was greatful of course, but in the back of my mind I always wondered why they didn't give me a sixteenth birthday gift that I wanted. Like my birthday wasn't even mine. My life was lived according to what they wanted. Now that I'm married and finally truly happy, its interesting that Joe picks something like this for me. Like he's fulfilling every bit that was missing. Even the petty wants and desires. I know that sounds rediculous, but while you are sitting back in your little sedan (being a square) wondering what life could hold for you outside the box....i'm driving OVER you and laughing.

The engine has been completely rebuilt. It has something like 30 thousand miles on it. And its a beast. I have to jump up to get in it. Like actually mounting a horse.
So, I'm a bronco woman.

I like it :).

No comparison

2007-02-01T11:37:00.000-08:00

So yesterday turned out to be an interesting day.

I went to the Claremore Indian hospital. Since I dont have health insurance still, I decided to take advantage of the fact that I'm Cherokee and have my card. At the Indian hospital you can have everything from a routine physician's check-up to a dental teeth cleaning and free pharmacy. Well, the problem is, its first come first serve. So I arrive and hour before they open to get in line. Surprisingly I get through setting up my chart# (a general identification so you can use any of their services) fairly quickly. But the specific kind of treatment I was seeking actually required me to sign up for an appointment. The EARLIEST of which was JULY 3! 'F' that. So I walked out and decided it was a complete waste of time.
When I go home is when it REALLY gets interesting.

Its starts to snow some and soon its covered the ground and starts getting cold outside. I'm doing a little house work and suddenly the power goes off. I go into a panic thinking that maybe the snow storm somehow made someone crash into a pole or something. Then remembering that some people in this part of the state were without power for nearly two weeks and knowing that the news predicted the temp was supposed to be in the teens that night, I REALLY START TO PANIC!

Then in the very very back of my mind I remember my husband telling me that in order to transfer the electric into our name I was supposed to drive 40 minutes to the po-dunk electric company's office in COLLINSVILLE to give a deposit. It had completely left my mind. This was weeks ago before the last ice storm. OH GOD! I then proceed to chew the heck out of the company on my cell. "WHO IN THE HECK TURNS OFF SOMEONE'S POWER IN THE MIDDLE OF A SNOW STORM? WHAT KIND OF A PERSON/PEOPLE ARE THAT COLD-HEARTED AND DEMENTED ENOUGH NOT TO CONTACT THE PEOPLE EITHER BY MAIL OR PHONE AND TELL THEM THEY NEED TO GIVE A DEPOSIT SOON OR SOMETHING!?" It was just rediculous.
So, I then proceed to drive nearly an hour (cause of the road conditions) in the middle of a snow storm, all the way to their office just to give a deposit.

I'm just glad that Joe was at work and couldn't deal with this or I'm afraid someone over there would be dead. Or at the least deaf and delirious.

VERTIGRIS VALLEY ELECTRIC AND BASLER REAL ESTATE.....watch your backs.
A-holes.

On another note...Joe seems to really want to get this:

I would be driving it most of the time...but....
I kinda want one of these first:

No comparison really....

Head cold

2007-01-29T08:24:00.000-08:00

I'm currently trying to recover from a horrid head cold. Visiting with my soon-to-be nephews a few days ago, we recieved this cold. Joe got it first. Then it passed to me, and i guess it decided to make a home in my head. Joe was over it in a day, its been nearly 3 for me.
*sigh
Its one of those really nasty ones that makes you sneeze, cough, and constantly blow your nose or else have it drip down your face. With as many kleenex tissues there are around the house right now, its a wonder I have that much fluid in my body to sustain life.

For those of you out of the loop:
1. Joe and I moved to a new house (in the country) in between claremore and inola.
2. He got an engineering job in pryor.
3. I'm currently taking a semester off because of the abrupt move.
4. I am miserably sick right now.
5. My sister is getting married to Eric.

The fifth is a big deal to me. I'm happy for her, because for the longest time I was worried about her. She is the type that wears her heart on her sleeve. Which as all of you know isn't the most attractive attribute in a woman. There are very few men comfortable with a girl being MADLY, FOOLISHLY in love with them almost instantly, and she was that type of girl.
But she found a great guy. Hes been through a lot, and is mature enough to handle her. He has two children already, eli and mason, and never been married. This is something that weeds out the less dedicated women, and he found Jenny. Eli-a baby, and Mason-a toddler, are adorable. I'm already so attached. The last visit I had with them I was surprised to find that Eli is already recognizing me. He held out his arms the minute I came in the room.
This is all perfectly fine with Joe, seeing as I am gaagaagooing with Jenny's soon-to-be children, and getting my fill of babys so I dont think about them.
I never thought I would be an aunt before a mother.
God-willing, ill be able to have children as adorable as Eric's and Jenny's.

Joe's at an Engineering conference in Dallas, so If anyone wants to chat to keep me company while im sick, i'll be online most of the time.

South Park Characters

2007-01-05T16:26:00.000-08:00

This is what Joe and I would look like as SouthPark
characters.

Hahahaha

Merry Christmas

2006-12-14T09:37:00.000-08:00

No, Bah..Humbugs this year.

Only this:

A look back on November

2006-12-07T12:51:00.000-08:00

November was interesting.

It involved our 6 month wedding anniversary,
My birthday,
And Thanksgiving all in one.

Did anything really exciting happen? Well, we didn't do much of anything on our anniversary because we are poor.

For my birthday Joe's parents and grandparents took us out to dinner and had cake.

And thanksgiving was spent in Colorado with Joe's other set of adorable grandparents.

I got a Job. It sucks, but we need me to work. Joe's getting worried about his job situation. He graduated in about a week, and doesn't have anything lined up, besides his current job which doesn't utilize a mechanical engineering degree at all. He's gotten some rejection letters, and is feeling a little down. Which makes me down. And anyone who knows me, knows I change my image when I am down. I guess in an attempt to run from the problem. Or perhaps maybe the problems wont recognize me...
Two changes:

Ditched the lip ring after a couple of days of drooling and talking with a lisp.

Then a miraculous hair cut:

Problems will never find me.

Life

2006-09-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

Its kind of difficult these days keeping in touch with writing on here. School, work, and a new husband make for hardly any time. This week has been interesting though, so I thought I would write about it. After gaining a little 'just married weight' I starting working out again. Right now I'm at 3 times a week running two miles, lifting weights, and some ab exercises. I can already feel a change in my energy, though on Monday of this week I actually slept through two of my morning classes, which is not normal for me. Anyone who knows me knows I'm yawning at 11 pm, and usually up and perky at 9 am no matter if I need to be up at that time or not, 9 am is my bodys wake up.

Another interesting event recently is our laundry accident. I'm usually the one who does most of this task, though Joe helps me carry it all to the laundry facility. I check all the pockets of jeans and such, but it never occured to me to check in the collar of a shirt before, and sure enough, Joe left a ball point pen clipped to the collar in a polo. Which we proceeded to wash with some of our towels from the wedding, and my favortie jeans and pants, and all of joes shorts. So we had a load full of pen splattered clothing. We have yet to replace it though, makes it feel more like married life again, wearing the clothes anyway.

We needn't complain about money though, Joe and I have been doing pretty well with his job, mine, and the financial aid/ loans. We actually splurged and bought an XBOX 360! I thought that we kinda needed to buy something extravagant in order to still feel sane after all these months of pinching, but we both had buyers remorse the minute we got in the car. Oddly enough, I am the one that seems to play it more, Joe only likes it for its capability to connect to his computer in the office and play his music downloads on the surround stereo, and his movies on the big screen. Its quite a device, I've already beat Tomb Raider Legend.... ;)

Then the last of the week consisted of me spraining my ankle on the stairs to our apartment, and Joe's career fair, which is pretty much the most important part of his college career. All the companies hiring engineers came to the school and the graduating class gave out resumes. We were both nervous, but of course Joe makes me proud when he gets a call back THE SAME DAY AS THE CAREER FAIR from FMC Technologies wanting to take him out to dinner! I'm sure he is going to get a great job. The cool thing about it was that his best friend just happened to be the other engineer they chose out of the entire class to come along too, but they wont be competing, joes mechanical and matt's electrical. It would be cool to get to move to Houston where all the rest of Joe's friends live, and have matt come along!

Thats summed up. I wish you all a great semester/ fall.

Facebook F**k Up

2006-09-06T11:24:00.000-07:00

I'm really not liking the new facebook feed. Its kinda disturbing being able to see every change anyone makes to their profile or comments or pictures. I certainly don't want anyone seeing every step I make. Facebook used to be the safest internet friends site, now I'm not so sure of that. I sure hope they change that back, otherwise I might delete it permanently and go to Myspace only.

The game was disappointing, even though we won. We made some critical mistakes that will probably lead to an unsatisfactory season, especially since its Joe's and my last football season.

Karaoke tonight! WOOHOOO!

Bleh

2006-08-29T20:02:00.000-07:00

I got sick today....bleh.

Back to school bologna

2006-08-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

My first class of the first day of school was cancelled.....

WTF?
Am I happy about a cancelled class? Oddly enough NO!
What a bunch of bologna, I could have slept in for another hour! Was there an email notification? No, I went all the way up to the top of dale hall tower and read a note saying it was cancelled today. Now I'm completely bored for an hour and a half before my next class starts. Grr.

Joe's birthday is tomorrow, this weekend we went out to Hooters with a bunch of his friends then went to see Snakes on a Plane. Dinner was good, but it seemed to be some sort of mating ground for 14 year olds??? I guess they thought they were being rebels by probably having their moms drop them off in front of IHOP and walking over to the Hooters. We were surrounded by three tables full of them. Needless to say, the waitress was preoccupied with babysitting and we didn't have the greatest of service but it was still good. Joe got the Three Mile Island sauce on his chicken. Supposedly the hottest sauce they have. It was nuclear, I asked for a bite and breathing in NEAR the sandwich closed up my throat. The bite was hot to say the least.

SNAKES on a Plane. "I'm TIRED OF THESE MOTHER F*in SNAKES ON THIS MOTHER F*in PLANE!" Sam L's famous line pretty much sums up my thoughts on the movie. Like Joe read and preped us before....leave your plot hole radar behind. The audience was the most fun part of the movie experience. If you have to see it, I would suggest going to see it in the theaters, so the audience can entertain you, cause the movie certainly can't hold your attention on its own. Not a renter.

D+ for stupidity, unnecessary nudity, gore, and an unbelievable plot. Pretty much everything I was expecting and more.

Moving out blues

2006-07-31T20:16:00.000-07:00

I hate moving. I'm sure most of you share this feeling. Its awful. Especially in 100+ degree weather. Thank goodness Joe's friend Matt didn't cancel on us. Without his help, I honestly dont think I could have turned in my old keys today. You see, my parents were supposed to come home from Colorado on Friday with the Harley trailer, move a couple of things, spend the night with Joe and I, then help us move the entire next day. But earlier that week we got word that Joe's mom's birthday party was on Sat. So I invited my parents to come. This made them change their plans. So they could attend the party, they decided they would drive home with the trailer first, then come on Sat. to help move and go to the party.

Did they do what was planned? no, Friday I get a call at around 530 from them, they are 50 miles from Norman and ready to get the things I borrowed from them at my apt. back and leave. So not only did Joe and I have to rush back to clear off the desk and clean out from under the bed for them to take both, but we also lost their help for the move on Saturday, and I had to APOLOGIZE to Joe's grandparents for my parents rudeness and cancel their attendence to the party.

My parents hurt my feelings in several ways. Putting me in the position to have to cancel for them the day before an event they obligated themselves to, and making me feel as though they had no desire to spend any time with Joe and I at all. Seeing as I haven't seen them pretty much at all since the wedding. They came by picked up their shit, took a restroom break in my bathroom, and left Joe and I in a daze standing on the sidewalk. WHAT COMPLETE AND UTTER JERKS! I DENY ANY AND ALL AFFILIATIONS TO THEM, ESPECIALLY A GENETIC BOND. I swear, the nerve of people.

So not only did we lose two people to our moving effort, but Joe's brother hurt his back at work and couldn't help either!

My husband is some sort of superman, I have no clue how he and Matt managed to get all of our stuff in our new place, like a big screen TV and two couches and a bed.

Close call

2006-07-20T19:18:00.000-07:00

Close calls really make you thankful for your ordinary day. I was running errands this afternoon around town. As I was making my way back home to the apt before work I witnessed, and was very nearly a participant in a horrific accident. I was turning right into the apt complex and was slowing down to make the turn, the corvette behind me changed lanes really recklessly behind me in order to not have to slow for my turn I suppose. A honda was pulling out of the same drive and didn't see the vet zoom around me. He was creamed right before my eyes by the vet going about 45 mph. Its weird how your mind functions at times like these, I distinctly remember shouting," No no!" As I saw the honda pull out. As if they would hear and stop. The crunch was really loud, even though I had Joe's stereo playing. I pulled out of the way quickly and called 911. The lady driving the vet didn't even think to call the police, she started bawling and called what sounded like her husband. The two guys in the honda limped over to me and thanked me for calling. They both used the phone to call their bosses. Apparently they were on their way to work. Seeing as how the fire station is less than a mile away, the police and fire dept. were there very quickly and I had to stay for questioning and a statement.
The whole time I was thanking God that I wasn't involved. It happened all around me. Really shakes you up.

Makes you thankful for boring and uneventful days...

BAHAHAHA

2006-07-06T08:51:00.000-07:00

What a likeness.....

Can you tell which is the real Kim Jong Il?
The strings barely give that one away.... hahaha.

Take your defective missiles and shove em up your A$$!
AMERICA! FUCK YEAH!

DROOL

2006-07-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

yes.....

THE TEASER TRAILER

oh god......

Independence Day!

2006-07-03T21:24:00.000-07:00

Listen to the Speech

I had a migraine last night....

2006-06-29T13:57:00.000-07:00

Me

Joe

INTERVIEW FROM HELL

2006-06-20T13:27:00.000-07:00

Interviews are a nerve-racking thing to most people, but most of the interviews i've had so far have been a handshake and a welcome to the job. BUT THIS ONE WAS DIFFERENT.

I guess they need to be picky when hiring people for a bank, but jeez, my nerves are still on end. IT WAS THE INTERVIEW FROM HELL. The one that you've been told about but never thought you would experience. Well this supersedes that.
THE STORY
Its starts off with the scheduling of when its going to take place, I call up the agency and tell them i received the email, and needed to schedule my interview. They then pushed the bombshell on me that it was a phone interview, since the building isn't finished for the new bank yet.

Now i think this is a piece of cake, not only do i not need to dress up, but there will be no one staring you down and analyzing you....then I realize, I hate talking on the phone. Anyone who knows me, knows i am the most awkward phone talker in the world. Crap.

As 2:00 rolls past, the scheduled time, i'm thinking they gave me the stiff. Considering its not like you can show up somewhere and impress them with your punctuality this is already off to a bad start. 2:10. I get the call. She seems nice enough, then informs me that the following questions were just to get to know me better, not a test. NOT A TEST MY A$$! The next 50 minutes, no joke, 50 MINUTES were full of those open ended terrifing questions like: "how do you respond to pressure, and name an instance in which you were put under pressure, what it was, and how you resolved and dealt with it." Jeez, can you repeat the question, i freaking forgot what it was initially about by the time she finished. After about 40 more questions I somehow manage to maybe 'successfully' answer- 'successfully' meaning I didn't freeze and make an awkward silence- she procedes to start a math exam. "In your head answer these problems as quickly as possible please..." that sweet voice now sounding like a demon.

8 + 2 i laugh a little to myself...this isn't so bad....
14 + 19 oh okay ....
27 + 45 uh jeez....
211 + 439 $hit.
2103 + 1157 oh dear god, are you serious?!?

I started to picture her looking something like this:

maybe thats why it was a phone interview....

I dont really remember the rest of what she had to say about the job requirements, i was still kinda working on that last problem in my head....

Seems that shes going to call the bank in moore and set up another interview... all i wanted to do was ask if that last part was really part of the normal interview, and maybe what the last answer was....

HA!

2006-06-17T10:50:00.000-07:00

HAHA!

New Look

2006-06-16T17:22:00.000-07:00

In honor of the beginning of my new life, I made a few changes.

I cut my hair, and got a little nose piercing (since they said my tongue was too short for a tongue ring :( and i didn't want to leave empty handed.)

Before:

(I think i was really concentrating on taking that picture....)

After:

(It feels like I lost 10 pounds, and joes happy that it doesn't take me an hour anymore to dry and straighten my hair.)

YAY!

Marriage is tough

2006-06-14T11:32:00.000-07:00

I didn't think it was going to be a walk in the park, but I certainly was unprepared for all the things that follow marriage.

We recently filled out our FAFSAs. We thought it was going to be really surprising how much aid we were going to get, seeing as we are now independent. But we suddenly have to fill out all these forms about tax history, and whatnot for the school. Joe and I are sure they are trying to screw us over.

Getting my named changed on my bank accounts, drivers license, social security card, cherokee nation card, credit cards, student id and student accounts was a serious deal.

All the insurance changes, the car, the medical, all so expensive.

Needing a bigger apartment for the two of us and all the stuff we have accumulated on our own.

All add up to BIG BUCKS WE DONT HAVE. *whew*
At least our relationship is strong and sincere, i can see why some people fail at it.

Photoganza

2006-06-12T20:30:00.000-07:00

Thats my made up word for a photo extravaganza. Which is what is happening on my flickr site. Click on the link to the right to view all my favorite engagement/bridal/getting ready for the big day/ceremony pics. The reception will go up soon too. *Warning* mushy stuff. ;)

Here Comes the Bride

2006-05-31T07:43:00.000-07:00

Im an old married woman now.
The wedding was amazing. I will update with more when all the pictures come back.

Times almost up!

2006-05-16T10:09:00.000-07:00

Getting Married In:

SCHOOLS OUT FOR SUMMER!

2006-05-11T16:02:00.000-07:00

I got that song in my head. Anyway, I'm officially done with finals. Yippee, all went well i believe. Now there is 8 days left until im married to the love of my life, and 10 days until im on a beautiful tropical beach sipping a margarita in my bathing suit. Yesterday Joe and I went to the courthouse to get our marriage license. We got sworn in afterwards, its really happening!

I take bridal photos with Christen on saturday. I think we are going to do it on campus somewhere, so im glad classes are out. I dont want to look like an idot in my dress with lots of people walking around.

Weekend

2006-05-07T09:16:00.000-07:00

Well, the time is quickly approaching. 12 days until im hitched. This weekend we had to go back to Owasso again, because my fathers birthday was cinco de mayo, and my sister just graduated from law school on saturday. I felt that even though gas prices are high, and finals week is this week, I still needed to be there with my family, and Joe was gracious enough to go along and keep me company. Only 14 days until im having fun in the sun in playa del carmen mexico! HERE.

Everything is falling into place, wish me luck on my finals. And good luck to all of you!

What the Heck?

2006-05-02T19:39:00.000-07:00

Today I get out of classes and come home to relax and I open the door to my apartment and found that it was hotter in there than outside. 85 degrees. Wonderful. Called the maintanence staff, they put it on the list i guess. Nothing happens all night. Then my brilliant fiance goes outside and in a matter of seconds he notices that the fuses for my entire side of the building are out of their boxes and just resting on the tops. Did the staff inspect them, and negligibly leave them out? Did someone go by as a prank and unplug them? Who the heck knows! All i know is that I'm sitting in a nice cool apt. because my amazing fiance knows a little about EVERYTHING! I LOVE IT! only 17 days to go! wow!

Nightmares

2006-04-20T10:42:00.000-07:00

Last night I dreamed about the apocalypse. I was in Stillwater actually, i think I was visiting Shannon, and we were talking late into the night. I dont know where joe was! Anyway, sitting next to the window, I looked into the sky briefly and was startled by the fact that there was like two moons, and one was red. There was this strange fog-like presence descending from one of the moons (like in the ten commandments movie when the death angel comes down and there is this green mist!)Spooky! Then a CLOWN (which im deathly afraid of) rode by on a horse. I guess he was supposed to be one of the four horsemen? Then all these bright flashes zoomed everywhere, and everything seemed to be exploding. I woke up abruptly, and quite terrified. Joe slept soundly. It was a terrifying dream, and today I'm haunted by it.

White Ribbon Week

2006-04-18T16:07:00.000-07:00

So apparently it is "white ribbon week" on the OU campus. I've seen lots of signs up, and I have to say that I think it is amazing! I totally support it! Some of the Campaign signs:

Keep up the good work men.

Coming up fast!

2006-04-12T13:40:00.000-07:00

*sigh

2006-04-06T09:28:00.000-07:00

You broke me yesterday...

BUT TODAY IS A NEW DAY!

Soccer boys are cocky jacka$$es

2006-03-28T15:50:00.000-08:00

So we finally got out to the fields today, since the weather is finally nice again. And I have to say, I had just about forgotten how cocky male soccer players can be. Considering my entire class has about 4 girls in it, and about 30-40 boys, it was intimidating. One guy made a sexist comment about girls not being able to play soccer, and I about started an all out rumble. I should have kicked him in the nuts, or turned him in for sexual harrassment, but since i'm too nice all that i remember replying with was a "HEY!" Him:1 Melody:0. I dont think he expected any of the girls to hear. I have a feeling I have a long way to go to earn the respect of the guys. Its funny how we are in the 21st century and women still encounter sexism in our everyday lives.
The coach sucks too, several of the people in the class have never even played soccer before. So we should be going over fundamentals or doing drills or something, but no, he sets them on the sidelines and lets them watch us scrimage for an hour and 40 minutes. During our water break I noticed one girl I had talked to at the first class, and walked over to make small talk.(considering she was one of few without a penis) She mentioned wanting to maybe drop the class cause she didn't want to sit in the grass watching us play the whole class time. So I took a couple of the beginners aside to teach a few fundamentals, pass a bit, and tell them a few rules of the game. It was ridiculous that I was doing the teachers job, cause he was too busy scrimaging with the rest of the 'ALL STATErs'! Hopefully I made a few friends and encouraged some people to stay.

Today was exhausting

2006-03-23T13:47:00.000-08:00

I woke up at 7:50 this morning, and realized it was entirely too bright outside for that early in the morning. It had snowed, which made exiting the warmth of the covers that much more hard. After stumbling into the bathroom and puting on my suit, I bundled on three more layers of clothes and headed to the pool. Half of the class was absent, and the remainder decided it would be fun to swim relay races. I'm not feeling this cause they actually have on the air conditioner in the room, and I'm not ready to jump in the water. I'm exhausted after the races, all of which me and my partner lost, because we are swimming free style and I suck at freestyle. (If it were the breast stroke or back stroke I would kick butt.) Get home, take a shower, and pretty much go straight to soccer. So I've worked out twice today! Then I had to do a presentation right after soccer class and dress business casual. Grr to wearing uncomfortable clothing. Now I'm in the library buying time before my next class. Which goes until 6:30. And even perhaps after that I will go tanning for my Mexico honeymoon, and meet Laura and Kelly for dinner and a Movie (not just any movie, V for Vendetta again) with Joe and I. *whew*

V for Vendetta = A for Awesome

2006-03-20T09:36:00.000-08:00

For our 6 month anniversary we ended up going to see 'V for Vendetta' and then going to Outback Steakhouse. I have to say that the movie is worth multiple visits to the theater. Joe and I both got out of the showing and wanted to go back in and watch again. It was artistic, action-filled, and thought provoking. I admit I was a little weary after seeing the previews, that it was going to be really cheesy. But, the whole premise was amazing. I don't want to ruin it for anyone, so I will leave it at that. GO SEE IT.

Big Day

2006-03-17T09:01:00.000-08:00

Our 6 month anniversary is coming up tomorrow. I dont know exactly what we have planned, but I'm sure it will be special. It seems like we have been together a lot longer than that. We got back our engagement pics.

They turned out great, and this week I have been working on getting out our invitations. That is a FULL TIME JOB! I have literally been working non-stop about 8 hours a day on those things. All the calligraphy and the labeling and placement of like three different envelopes. Its about to drive me crazy. All this stupid ettiquette stuff that no one is going to notice or appreciate anyway! Grr. Just know people that when you get an invitation, that particular one probably took about 30 minutes to make. Whatever. HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY!

Little Black Book

2006-02-24T14:12:00.000-08:00

So...other than the fact that I've had two tests and a paper due this week. Nothing has really happened. So I didn't feel it was blog worthy.

Except for the mystery of the organizer, well, maybe not even this.
So I keep this organizer, to help me be more... organized haha. And everyone who knows me at all knows I need all the help I can get. Well, I've started to depend on this little black booklet everyday, to let me know what is coming up homework wise & wedding wise. It has everything in it. All my appointments, and to-do lists. So when it mysteriously disappeared on Wed. I FREAKED OUT! I was completely lost. Couldn't keep my head on straight. I looked everywhere for that dang thing, even went to each classroom building I've been in EVER to ask if its been turned in. NO LUCK. I looked in my car, joe's car, turned my room and closet inside out, and dug through my backpack at least (no lie) 15 times. GRRR! It vanished into thin air. I was furious, considering it was a serious attempt at trying to be responsible and it was like the world didn't want me to be organized. Finally gave up the search. Presumed dead. Then this morning while packing THE SAME BACKPACK for class, there at the top was the organizer. Completely within plain view...

Does anyone else think god sometimes gets a hoot out of making things disappear and putting them back later, after you've given up? Thats the only explanation.

Divine disappearance and replacement.

HAPPY VALENTINES!!

2006-02-13T09:03:00.000-08:00

Some pics of the special and ORIGINAL way Joe and I celebrated our first Valentines Day together!

We are so BADA$$!

oh, on another note....shan, ken, alyssa, laura, jenny, i have to resign from my position of vice president of the AVC. (antivalentinesdayclub)

I am planning a very nice dinner, of bbq ribs and strawberry shortcake for dessert on tues for Joe.

Hope everyone has a great V-DAY!

whew

2006-02-09T07:26:00.001-08:00

I just got out of swim class. It was especially hard to get out of bed today at 7:50 knowing I am on my way to work out. I didn't get to bed till late. Yesterday was a full day, and ended in the wee hours of the morning.

We played water polo today in swim class and let me tell you.....

tredding water & PLAYING WATER POLO is NO EASY FEAT. Not to mention that no one wanted to be goalie cause it requires the most work and risk of getting pummled with the HARD ball, so I volunteered. I discovered something about myself today... I FREAKING ROCK AT WATER POLO

This is so me! -well not really- but you get the point.

Not one point was scored against me, and our team won 3-0! Which is a lot in the world of water sports. <---gloating/boasting.

My muscles are spasming now though, im sore, and i cut my hand on the piece of tile on the side of the pool, who was trying to sabatoge my polo skills. i played through it though ;). Like a true athelete ;) ;)

In other news, last night at Joe and my pre-marital counseling, we played a "newlywed game" of sorts. Being as we are the youngest couple, and the newest couple (one couple having known each other since like middle school!!!) we almost took that freaking game by storm. So all the people who keeping giving me the -five months since you met and already engaged?!?- look can just go to freakin H-E-double hockey sticks! *sigh*

i think im gonna fix an omelete.

Top Ten Reasons I Know He's the One

2006-02-03T13:03:00.000-08:00

Just a couple of reasons that really stand out in my head, or I've been looking for in a guy and hadn't found until now.

10. He's thinks everything I say is important.
9. He's handy.
8. My parents love him.
7. He opens every one of my doors.
6. He prefers spending time with me doing nothing, over plans with his friends.
5. We believe the same things spiritually.
4. He smells like home.
3. He walks on the traffic side of the sidewalk.
2. He does the 'soccer mom' hold in the car when braking fast.
1. I don't have to angle my head when we kiss, because my nose fits perfectly under his.

I LOVE YOU!

*Sigh

2006-02-01T10:25:00.000-08:00

I am starting to get really excited about the future. Our invitations are printed up and ready, and we booked our honeymoon location yesterday! Check out where I get to go in MAY!

Honeymoon

*sigh, time goes by slowly!

Glimpse

2006-01-24T18:59:00.000-08:00

a picture most certainly is worth a thousand words

Everything is in full swing!

2006-01-17T11:50:00.000-08:00

School has started today. I'm in a computer lab waiting for my next class, considering the entire first week is kinda a joke. After about 15 minutes of introductions and getting signed in, passing out papers, the instructors let us go. This semester should be an easy one to get back in the swing of things. That should leave plenty of time for wedding planning.

We already have a place and date. The cedar rock inn in tulsa, on the 19th...not the 20th like we first had hoped. We put down a deposit on that, and I already have my dress. So the hard stuff is all done. Joe and I also started our counseling, and it has really brought us together as a couple. So the planning is on its way too.

I'm taking swimming and soccer this semester as actual classes. Which I'm excited about, but at the same time, wearing a one piece speedo, goggles, and a cap is going to be....well....interesting. I should be fit and looking lean by wedding time though, and after that the honeymoon in Mexico. ;)

I don't think it has quite sunk in yet. I look down at my hand several times a day and see the ring and try to peer into the future. I wonder when I will actually start feeling like a fiance, instead of plain ole melody?

Update on the big day!

2006-01-10T09:04:00.000-08:00

Check out our website for details:
theknot.com
Put in my name in the orange box under 'going to a wedding' and click webpage.

Only 130 days to go. Planning is in full swing. We registered at Dillards and Target this weekend so at least that is out of the way. We start premarital counseling this week. We also picked our location and time. Its going to be May 20th around 4. Check our location website for awesome pictures. We rent the entire inn, so all of the rooms are available except the honeymoon suite if anyone is interested in staying the night in one of the rooms:

cedarrockinn.com

Joe and I are so excited. The one thing that has been weighing on my mind is the fact that people keep asking/making the comment to him-thank god never to me or i'd be pissed- about "do you need to get married?" ASSUMING THAT IM LIKE KNOCKED UP! HAH! This is comical to anyone that knows me, cause im like the only remaining virgin in the mid-U.S. GRRRR! Can't two people just be excited and anxious about starting their lives together? How tacky is it to make that comment?

I guess it does seem sudden to most people. Considering we met on August 27th, and were engaged on December 24th. We just knew we were meant for each other early on is all. We are to that point now that we have silent conversations with each other, and can even finish each others sentences in conversation. I love that feeling. The feeling of someone understanding you, and finding everything you say important. What a catch I've gotten myself.

BIG NEWS!

2006-01-04T19:47:00.000-08:00

IM ENGAGED!!!

There and back again...

2005-11-28T19:36:00.000-08:00

I spent my Thanksgiving holiday with the love of my life, and his family in Colorado. Nine special days.

I dont know what to do with myself now.

This is the Stanley Hotel in Estes Park. The hotel that Stephen King based his book "The Shining" on. It was beautiful.

This is Joe in front of his grandparent's cabin. It was an adorable place.

My 21st birthday was on the 26th. OU/OSU game day. I spent that evening at the Vista sports bar, with Laura, Kelly, Sarah, and Joe.

Couldn't be happier.

Neglect

2005-11-16T15:45:00.000-08:00

I guess the animal and the human world's aren't too different.

One of the barn cats my sister has taken in and started feeding had a litter of kittens this past month. She was practically a kitten herself, but none the less managed to have about five offspring. She carried one off pretty early. Later we heard it mewing in our barn and my father found it on top of his work shed. I'm pretty sure she left it for dead. We put it back with the rest of the litter, but I guess we were just playing god cause she moved them again and left the poor thing one more time. I dont know if it just was too small and she didn't think it would survive, or it just got the short straw and she could only keep four comfortably.

It reminded me of when I was in grade school.

One of the cats we had at the time had a litter, and one was most definitely a runt. It also had some sort of muscle/leg problem. I guess she knew it wouldn't survive later and left it for dead. I heard it at the time, and decided to take it under my wing. I kept it in my room in a little blanket, and fed it about every 2 hours with a baby bottle. I even had a little 'exercise' routine, thinking my efforts would help it to grow strong. One day I came home from school, went to get the bottle and picked her up. She died that moment in my hands. My mother said she waited till I got home so she could say goodbye. It was traumatic for a kid.

So, this time I vowed to stay out of it. Even when my sister brought it in out of the freezing cold this morning with it whining louder than ever. But of course when she got out the 'skim' milk to feed it, i snickered and mentioned that 'skim milk would be like water to them.' She didn't understand so, while i was trying to pretend i wasn't interested in what was going on i found an eyedropper and some condensed milk and hinted at their use. It worked, the little thing ate until its little belly was huge! It was so cute, ahem, i mean i dont know what happened....

We took it to the shelter this evening. Maybe it'll be a nice little christmas gift for some nice kid.

Friends are FUN!

2005-11-02T16:18:00.000-08:00

Cool title eh? I'm in a weird mood. Nothing especially 'deep' going on in Melody's head right now. So just relax, turn off that brain, and enjoy some random pics of me and my buddies:

Tim and I on his bike.

Timacious, the Melinator, and Kellimus Maximus

My boy.

Our favorite past-time.

My attempt at being romantic with him at lunch...im a goober.

"The Calling" Part II

2005-10-18T14:07:00.000-07:00

After a long time rewriting the second part to my short story, here it is. If you can't remember part one, click on the link to take you back. Tell me what you think, I need some encouragement in order to continue on to part three. So, if you enjoy it and are curious as to the next installment, tell me.

The Calling Part I

Part II
...Continuation...
Seemingly only short moments later he awoke. The early morning sun shone brightly through the windshield, and he stretched clumsily in the confines of the seatbelt. He felt rejuvenated, and smiled at the awe of his first complete night’s sleep being in the driver’s seat of an 84' Jeep Wrangler. The night’s weird occurrences seemed vague and so long ago. Glancing at the time, he realized she would be gone. But he knew, by some means, exactly where she would be. Outside the library he spotted her sitting on a bench secluded by two willow trees and mounds of blooming flowers. She was writing in a notebook. He noticed a weary look to her motions and face, but she retained this innocently charming appearance. The cool breeze touched her flowing hair, and he imagined he smelt its clean intoxicating scent.

He contemplated the irony of the setting. The library: quiet, calm, a place of reflection; A world of knowledge at one’s fingertips, just as literally she knew you with one touch. Her eyes were fixed on something out of his view. He shifted slightly on his bench to get a better look, trying not to call attention to himself. She watched as a young man came out the side of the building. The young man fidgeted with his watch, unfixed and fixed his collar. Then nervously took out a cigarette. While inhaling deeply the man put one hand up to his head and feigned wrenching out a headache his brow held. Then the man’s stare blanked of all expression as an audible sigh of helplessness escaped his lips chased with smoke, the cigarette dropping to the ground, unnoticed. She stood up abruptly leaving behind her notebook and walked over, his spellbound state never breaking.

Her movements were that of a heavily burdened individual, almost like a march on death row. When she finally met her destination she stood directly in front of the young man, and looked so fragile in comparison to his size. Something was said that could not be distinguished, and the young man snapped back to reality, reaching into his pockets to pull out the cigarette box. The exact moment that their fingers met, the young man’s offering the box, hers receiving, was quite apparent. The man’s expression changed from that of plain introspection to clear shock. He could not be sure if he saw some sort of actual burst of light like a static electric charge being emitted, but the atmosphere around the two of them was almost tangible.

He considered the previous night, when the two of them had touched. She took away a lifetime of pain in microseconds, but judging by the fact that her reaction just now was only her bracing herself against the nearby bench as though light-headed, his pain must have been minimal. That is what happened right? He pondered. She supernaturally somehow drains all your pain by skin to skin contact? The notion was absurd, but as he thought back at all the memories that once caused his body actual physical hurting when he recalled them, seemed all but in the past now.

Now, with her sitting quietly on the bench slumped forward slightly with her eyes closed, the young man seemed to regain his composure. The man crinkled his forehead as though he couldn’t remember what just happened and slowly a smile swept over his face. The expression on the young man’s face was of confusion now, not aching, and he turned on his heel and walked off tossing his cigarette box up jovially a couple of times before the man was out of sight. His mind started racing at this. What type of CURSE is this? How could any one person bear the sorrow of the world? Is my mind playing tricks on me, or is she a genuine miracle-worker or superhero, or rescuer. While he was lost in reflection, she sat back up. Her eyes now open, but her cheeks wet from silent tears. She had made no noise, nor called any notice to herself. She resembled an angel the way the light was hitting her, and as he looked at her across the beautiful courtyard through the willows, she vanished like a quiet breeze. It came to his attention the exact word to describe her, ‘martyr.’

The end?

2005-10-11T15:06:00.000-07:00

This is someone's postsecret from this recent week:

I agree, and

it makes me restless.

Epiphany

2005-10-09T19:42:00.000-07:00

Today while driving home from Norman, I found myself driving the speed limit. This is really extraordinary considering that my usual turnpike rate is about 90+ mph. Why, may you ask, did a change occur? Suddenly I felt compelled to be as safe as possible: Paying more attention to the road, and even paranoid about the other drivers. I used to be quite daring with my life, even getting a rush from the danger. But now, driving like a granny seems to be more fitting. I questioned the reason for my newly cautious actions, because it seemed to happen overnight. And, in effect, it did happen overnight.

This weekend it was my turn to visit joe. So, expecting it to be the perfect weekend, I was in for a disappointment when I ended up bed-ridden with the stomach flu. Completely unwilling to ruin his weekend, nor inconvenience him, i was prepared to head home as soon as the sickness let up a bit. Used to the type of men that would be fine with this, and even request it, I was shocked when Joe refused to let me go. He didn't bail on me. On top of taking care of me, he went above and beyond normal hospitality when he went out to buy me chicken noodle soup, 7-up, crackers, a pair of sweat pants to lounge in, and a little stuffed soccer ball. It was adorable. He stayed by my side like only a completely dedicated boyfriend would, and I am eternally grateful.

Now, you are confused as to how this ties in with my cautious driving. I will explain. I used to feel as though I were invincible, that in essence, I wasn't tied to anything. Sure my family loves me, and I have a few friends that love and would miss me, but no one counting on me. But, I feel that now. Never have I felt more beautiful at my worst, never have I appreciated/respected someone as much, never have I felt so valuable and strong as a person as I did this weekend. Even when I was fragile and weak with the flu.

I feel this overwhelming emotion that keeps me running. One that helps me get out of the bed in the morning, do the right things, be a better person, and ahem....obey the traffic laws.... haha...

Ode to Joe

2005-10-02T17:03:00.000-07:00

It occured to me today that I haven't even mentioned my relationship on my journal yet, so I am going to remedy that now. Josef came to see me this weekend. I always enjoy his company, and when he leaves, its like a part of me goes with him. He makes me feel at home. I dont think I have ever had that before. Here are some pics for the few people that read this and are curious about us:

Here we are watching the football game.

Us looking so cool in our shades at the Tulsa State Fair.

An action shot while walking through the crowds.

I'm so happy! If you want to know more, just ask me.

Rocky Mountain High....Colorado....

2005-09-27T15:17:00.000-07:00

I like the feeling of waking up to the mountain air. It feels like I'm finally breathing for the first time. This trip was more of an escape. Its always a welcome refreshing vacation. However, when I leave for Oklahoma again, it feels more like I'm just starting the vacation and leaving my home.

The majority of the time I went natural. I pledged no make-up, nor fixing of hair the entire time. My garb usually consisted of my fathers camo gear, because being used to the Oklahoma climate and abruptness of the trip I was unprepared for the chilly weather. Most days the high being around the high sixties, and the low at night getting around freezing and below.

The four-wheeling trips were amazing. The new Frontier prooved its worth too. One of the trips up into the mountains alone quickly got interesting because it was nearing dark and I was somewhat lost on the 4-wheeler. Then, while studying an old trail map I found under my seat, I heard the scariest sound in the world. This other-worldly, screaming screech. The only reason I knew what animal it belonged to, was because I recently watched a video of a mountain lion hunt my father went along on to observe. Needless to say, I was worried. All ended well, and I think the adrenaline rush made it pretty interesting. But the most fun I experienced during the trip would have to have been beating my father at pool.

I dont know whether he just played that much when he was in college to have retained the skill, or if its just natural, but I don't believe I have ever seen my father practice. The times I have seen him play at all have been few and far between, but he somehow manages to retain a professional level of play. However, with my mom and I on one team and Scott and my father on the other team, we ended up tied after six games! Meaning I BEAT MY FATHER AT POOL THREE GAMES IN A ROW! *sigh* it was wonderful. After all the guff he gave us about not being able to play pool because we were women, and we beat him. Hehe.

"Melody and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day"

2005-09-01T20:53:00.000-07:00

You will not believe what I am about to tell you. A tale of which epic proportions, and hilariously tragic happenings, are those only legends can compare with.
;)

It all takes place in Owasso, OK, on Thursday, the 1st of September. The subject of our tale, one Melody Woods, a commoner.

I'm such a dufus.

Today my sister wakes me up at 9 oclock, even though I dont work till 11. The reason, you ask? .....To fix her hair..... yes.....it just so happens she is a 24 year old who can't do her own hair. So, after i finish that masterpeice, I start getting ready for work, taking care to do my own hair and makeup perfectly since I have all this time on my hands. 10:30 rolls around and I make my way out to my car. "Ew," I think to myself. "Its already scorching out."

I then proceed to open my car door, and sit in my seat and am greeted by the most extremely-hideously-horrible, outlandishly-unbearable taste/smell/feeling all in one. Thinking there was a deadly gas leak of some sort that must most definitely ignite and my whole car explode I dive out of it onto the grass and roll away. I'm laying in the dirt dry-heaving from the exposure of it, and my eyes start burning intensely and watering like crazy. I'm in a panic! So I inch my way back to the car, since it didn't catch fire, and notice a vile sitting in the passenger seat, and a weird orangish-brown foamy spray everywhere. DEAR GOD SOMEONE TRIED TO POISON ME! nope.

Turns out, in my stupidity, the pepper spray my father had given me, I foolishly left sitting in my seat in the summer sun. The bottle exploded from the pressure- had to have been recently- from the strength of the odor. So, in other words, I accidentally pepper-sprayed myself. Now who does that happen to? Thats unbelievable! ONly me, thats who.

To top off the day, I had to go to work soon after, taking careful precautions to ride with the windows down. So, I arrive at work with horribly wind blown hair, smelling like pepper, with swollen eyes, no more visible makeup, and grass-stained clothing. What a sight for sore eyes. I also had to work from 11 a.m. to 10:30 p.m. because someone called in sick. So no flushing out my eyes, or changing clothes for melody. I HATE MY LIFE!

The sun came out...

2005-08-17T20:03:00.000-07:00

This morning I awoke to another cloudy day. The earth really needed these past few days rain. I could almost hear it sigh with relief. The grass when I first came home was this burnt amber color. Now its bright and green, my favorite color! Is that a sign? Maybe so.

My father had a half day today. So, around 11 he came home. The rain started to clear about that time and he disappeared inside the barn, as usual. Most likely fixing something broken, I assume. So, curiousity got the best of me and I moseyed on out to see what he was doing. Sure enough, he was changing the oil in the lawnmower. He decided, that while the grass might be still soggy, it was the coolest time to mow and it was smart to get it over with. So, while he mowed, I picked up branches and raked, and round-uped the edge of the property. When we were done, I brought him a glass of ice water. We stood there on the porch, silent, looking at our golf course-beautiful lawn, drinking ice water. All you could hear was the cicadas, and it was extremely humid.... and...... it was perfect.

Cleansing

2005-08-14T14:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday there was this storm. Not the type with lightning and thunder, but a wind storm. Now growing up with a father that was somewhat in touch with his Native American roots, I remember him telling me once that a wind storm is an omen. I liked thinking that there was an unseen natural force taking hand, but also being raised Baptist, there was a difficulty in bringing the two spiritualities together. I always dismissed the things my father said about eagles, owls, and mist, and I know my friends laughed at my antics about the moon cycles influencing mood. But this wind storm stirred me up. It’s like I literally could feel the winds of change.

Lately I’ve been going down this destructive path. My friends have all been worried about me, and I’ve all but alienated every one of them. You see I have this problem with being a little….ahem….stubborn. I’ve always felt that I couldn’t respect myself if I had to receive help from someone, when I know I can achieve something alone, even if it does almost kill me getting there. But since last night, I feel suddenly very different.

I couldn’t sleep. I felt so restless. The soft tapping of the summer rain on the window next to my bed, was almost like someone trying to awaken me with a subtle urgency. As soon as I saw the tiniest light through the blinds, the sleepiness couldn’t keep its hold on me. It was barely past dawn and I walked out the back door. The rain was still coming down steadily, and it was cool and the wind silent and absent. I stepped off of the porch barefoot, and in my pajamas. I walked about half the way to the creek, and sat down in the soggy grass.

My backyard had always been a haven. Nature has its way of making an impression, even on the unimpressionable. As I sat outside in the rain, I’m sure I was quite a sight. One might even consider it a little eccentric. Even as I looked to my side, the horses across the property fence stared at me quizzically. It was all quite comical. But, in my perspective, I just humbled myself before god and nature, and started anew.

It’s amazing what a little wind storm can accomplish.

After being told that my parents -within the next year or so- intend to sell off this property that I used to love, and eventually came to hate, I started to admire it once again. It is really quite symbolic of my growth into a woman. One of the trees I used to easily reach and climb as a child, now stood before me completely out of my reach of arm. It was tall, strong, and a little worn, but none for wear. The marks I had carved, I could barely make out as anything more than just a couple of gaps in the bark. The path that used to lead to the pond looked nothing more than some stones pressed into the dirt and overgrown with vines.

As I was walking back towards the house, I also noticed something quite out of place. When I got nearer I recognized it as a child’s kite. It must have been blown its way into my backyard during the wind storm yesterday. Considering I don’t know of any children living in this neck of the woods it kind of made me wonder how far it traveled. It’s a neat thought, though also kind of sad. Some child is out there wondering where their kite went to, and I’m wondering where it came from.

Redo

2005-08-07T09:44:00.000-07:00

You know that little button at the top of your web screen that allows you to reload the page if an error occurs?

We need one of those for life occurances. That way we could push it to redo something we said or did. Or hell, redo an entire summer if need be...It would fit nicely in our bellybuttons. Just reach down after one of those awkward silences where everyone in the room is looking at you and thinking "what the hell?" after something stupid you said at a party, and press it. Automatically taking you to the past, seconds before you said what you did, so you can just SHUT THE HELL UP and stick your foot in your mouth. Or perhaps go back and relive something completely wonderful, and emotion you felt that you wished you could feel over and over again, or stop yourself from feeling.

I want a redo.

I dont think a normal person should have to bear quite that much. Too many bad decisions, mistakes, burdens, funerals, lonliness, and work for one summer. I'm tired of pretending to be okay. I always have to be the strong one, do it all alone. I have to always be the listener. Why can't I be the talker? Why must I always have to sit and listen to everyone else? No one listens to me, except for the few people that read this, and my cousin that happens to be the only person in this world that is a better listener than I am. I guess I'm good at that...being quiet and hearing. Its is rather comforting doing something you are good at, and helping another at the same time. But, perhaps its more that I'm bad at talking. Ha! Yes, I'm afraid thats it. As I read back a bit, I dont think any of this made a lick of sense. I feel cold.

I quit. Can I quit?

Maybe theres a button for that somewhere....

Weekends

2005-07-30T10:45:00.000-07:00

Stole these pics from Lindsay:

me and the infamous lindsay

me after circle of death, at one point in the game we had to say 'in my pants' after every phrase we uttered. made for an interesting night. which translated into me deciding to actually put things in my pants....this time skittles. ;)

me and the girly again.

more playing with skittles?? dont really know at this point....

Move Along...

2005-07-28T14:18:00.000-07:00

Well, my stuff is packed...

it looks so dreary here now with nothing on the walls...

Sarah is in Dallas for the weekend, and Laura is in Owasso. Its creepy alone here. Especially since everything is almost all packed up, its depressing. I drove around Norman the other night for a couple of hours taking it all in: The crazy turn of events that have occurred over this past summer to make me a completely different person, and turn my world upside down.

This weekend I have to live it up. My last weekend in Norman... And then I will MOVE ALONG...
Like this new rejects song that I have played almost completely on loop since I got the new album:

"Move Along"

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Camping Recap

2005-07-18T06:00:00.000-07:00

Since I've been up all night studying for my Zoo test, I feel I need a break. So I will give you a recap of the camping weekend.

We were running a little late, and didn't leave Norman till about 4. We stopped off at a gas station, and then the time slipped away till 5. We made it to Owasso, and Laura wanted us to stop by Chilis to see her before heading to the campsite. Which made it 7:30ish before we headed to my house to pick up the boat (which turned out to have locked steering, and we couldn't use). So then we took off to skiatook, and purchased gasoline for the boat and bought groceries. Then got to the campsite around 9:30. Gerard, Kelly, Tim, Greg and I set up the campsite, in the dark, and then sat around for a bit talking and then slept.

Haha, me being the morning person I am, I wake up at 7:00 and can't go back to sleep, so finally I wake up the boys at 8:30. A group of boys are very grumpy at 8:30 in the morning.... so we take the jetski out for a bit before Laura, Thomas, and Althea all meet us and we spend the day conversing, swimming, and getting sun.

That night we all play cards and sit around the campfire eating and drinking.
We eventually fall asleep and the next day just involves taking everything down. It was very relaxing and fun.

Highlights: 1.)Laura talking me into popping a squat in the grass at 2 in the morning, instead of walking half a mile to the restrooms 2.) getting to use a hatchet
3.)hearing about Greg and Tim's encounter with the ranger and the 90 dollar stump they chopped down:

4.)And probably Gerard and Laura pulling me on the intertube behind the jetski. Wow, I am sore....

....and tired....

Bothered

2005-07-11T12:03:00.000-07:00

I'm frustrated with the fact that girls and boys have these stupid gender roles we feel we must abide to. That boys must be the macho alpha male type, and girl the submissive, truly girly female. Whats up with that crap?

And relationships have similar stereotypical places:
The male must be the laid back initiator of romance and eventual heartbreaker/cheater. The girl has to be the overbearing nurturer and eventual jealous/paranoid ruiner.

If the relationship seems to be perfect, we being human naturally figure that something is wrong and create a drama. What is with people and DRAMA?

I think the only reason all of my relationships have failed is cause the other party didn't experience enough drama with me for it to be fullfilling. i.e. I get the reputation of being an ice queen/ frigid bitch cause they dont feel I care enough to be jealous or clingy or WHATEVER!

If you haven't seen the movie CLOSER you need to check that out. Its very depressing but so dang true, you might end up reevalutating your relationships and changing them for the better.

All in all, I am tired of boys. Hell, I'm tired of girls too. Can't we all just get along and have fun?

I have no clue who all exactly is coming on the trip, cause PEOPLE KEEP CHANGING THEIR MINDS DAILY!!!
But,
I'm going on this $&#*Q^&*@ camping trip, and im going to have a great time, even if i have to do it alone.

There is nothing like the warm sun on your back, while you sit on a boat with the slow rocking, and the pleasant sound of the waves splashing the sides, as you sip your favorite beverage, smell the sweet sunscreen mixed in with the aroma of barbeque, with a couple of your closests friends, with all the worries of the world miles away.....

(*does whole above speech, Braveheart style while riding around on horse/motorboat with face painted/colored sunscreen, wearing kilt/new white bikini*)

NOW, WHOS WITH ME!?!?!

Calling ALL SINGLE, ATTRACTIVE MEN!

2005-07-08T12:36:00.000-07:00

Next Friday some of the Normanites are making their way to the Owasso area for a little weekend getaway. We plan on going to Skiatook lake to campout in tents and enjoy the lake. So, if anyone is interested in joining the excitement, contact me. The more the better. We plan on leaving Fri. camping out that night, and spending the next day skiing, tubing, and relaxing. You know you want to come.....

I'm extremely excited!

And if you happen to be a single, smart, tall, attractive man.....then you are required by law to attend.

And if you are male, then how can you resist these faces (much less these bodies in bathing suits)?

Sinking

2005-07-05T21:16:00.000-07:00

So, after the long debate as to whether I will live or die....I fought my way to health again. I wont give in that easy! Its amazing how for granted we take the tiniest things everyday...like...the ability to WALK and EAT comfortably. I'm much more appreciative now, thats for sure! However, I now understand the meaning of the phrase 'sink or swim', cause I am really sinking. A major change needs to be made now. After the strain of my friends' struggles, my financial problems, and health slowly deteriorating, I have decided to take a semester off. It was a big thing for me because I wanted to prove to the world I could take care of myself...and well, everything. I didn't want to have to throw in the towel, and say "enough". But, that time has come. I'm moving back home after my lease is up. I plan to take a few classes while living at home, but mainly work to save money and get well. Emotionally and physically I'm way past my breaking point.

This was the hardest decision ever. Cause, I feel like I failed.
But I will be back. With more strength of mind and determination than ever. Pray for me. I need all the help I can get.

Have you ever been just exhausted. Not the 'I need a nap type', but the 'i quit' type? Thats it, thats what I'm feeling. Not that I need to justify my decision to anyone, but I want the few people that read this and care to know why I am doing this, to understand. Maybe you can learn from my mistakes and not spread yourselves too thin.

I heard and related to this Coldplay song:
-In My Place-
In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn’t change
I was lost, oh yeah
I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn’t have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah
And yeah
How long must you wait for it?
Yeah
How long must you pay for it?
Yeah
How long must you wait for it?
For it

I was scared, I was scared
Tired and underprepared
But I wait for it
And if you go, if you go
And leave me down here on my own
Then I’ll wait for you
Yeah

And yeah
How long must you wait for it?
Yeah
How long must you pay for it?
Yeah
How long must you wait for it?

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn’t change
And I was lost, oh yeah, oh yeah

Gone

2005-06-24T08:57:00.000-07:00

I have been sick for so long now......

I've lost track of time.

Sorry about the lack of posts. I cannot sit up for long at the computer, or anywhere, without pain.

I should be back shortly.

Interesting....

2005-06-10T20:51:00.000-07:00

The past couple of days have been....well....unique.

First of all I would like to say, all my love and prayers go to you, my friend.

Yesterday Sarah and I decided to do some bonding after we got off work. We went to the Casino here in Norman. Neither one of us had ever been to one before and thought it would be fun. It was more of a bingo hall. We were the youngest people there. Hahaha, to top it off I have the worst luck of anyone I know. I ended up losing 10 bucks within 10 minutes of our arrival. Sarah on the other hand wins 25 bucks. So, she treats me to dinner at Chilis. We decide to go into the city after the Casino. On the trip into town, a car full of boys passes by and moons us. So, being in a playful mood we flash them back. The day just gets more amusing....

We hit 23rd street, and Sarah decides to get a peircing:

HER STERNUM! WAY COOL!
Then, we went back to Norman and had some green tea in a cool coffee shop on Campus Corner. What a day. This morning, I wake up and nothing is going well, the clock is flashing from the storm, and I'm late getting up. So, I throw on some clothes put my hair in a ponytail and go to work for the long hall. I worked a double. So about a quarter of the way through my shift a delivery boy arrives with this:

FOR ME! :)

What a curious couple of days....whats in store for me next?

weeping

2005-06-07T09:44:00.000-07:00

It should have been me.

I want to take your place for you.

HA!

2005-06-02T20:24:00.000-07:00

Star Wars Horoscope for Sagittarius

You are superbly wise and have been known to spread your wisdom widely.
You are impatient and pushy when people take your teachings too lightly.
And your philosophical side always peeks through.

Star wars character you are most like: Yoda

What is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

2005-06-02T09:13:00.000-07:00

I have had a headache for so long now, I dont remember what it was like without one.

SLeepOver

2005-05-27T23:09:00.000-07:00

My cousin came over this weekend to visit and we camped out in the livingroom:

Kitty!

2005-05-26T17:31:00.000-07:00

Litter of barn kittens back in Owasso. Stayed with the rents, went okay i suppose. Bored outa my mind here in Norman.

Party favor....

2005-05-20T01:12:00.000-07:00

So, i just got back from one of the first summer parties. It wasn't anything big just some people getting together to hang out. The cool thing about this party, is that I met SOMEONE! They are seriously the coolest person I have met this year. We had an instant connection with so many things in common. The funny part about the whole situation is that it is a girl. No, I am not becoming a lesbian! I know that is the first thing that came to everyone's mind. I do think that this could be the beginning of a beautiful friendship though. We are a seriously scary match. I think perhaps we could be twins switched at birth. Shes a tomboy that plays rugby, likes action movies, camping, and wants a motorcycle! I had so much fun getting to know her. In fact, we started talking about martial arts and we made an appointment tomorrow to go to this brazilian ju jitsu place and sign up for lessons together! I am so glad I went to this party. Its just ironic that I went to a party and found a girl I want to get to know better, instead of a boy. After a while, I started to get very depressed though. She reminded me so much of what I USED to be like, it really brought to my attention how much I have changed. And I dont think it is for the better. Its like I'm the evil twin, or the cynical/worldly version. That really struck me. So at 3 a.m. when I got back to my apartment I stood in the grass at the complex in silence looking up at the stars in the clear night and I made an oath to myself....
then the sprinklers went off...

Summer has arrived...

2005-05-18T19:35:00.000-07:00

So, I have been doing a lot of thinking recently, in view of the fact that I have a lot of alone time now. Laura should be enjoying her Hawaiian vacation right now, and Sarah is down enjoying her boyfriend's company in Texas. This whole job situation is really stressing me out. I don't think any normal 20 year old girl should have to worry about keeping up with two jobs to pay for everything, maintaining grades in college, and trying to keep some sort of social life (HA!). So I have been weighing my options (there aren't very many unfortunately). One I have been seriously considering is to join the Reserves. I went to see an Army recruiter and think it might be the best option for me. I've always admired people in the military. I have been praying about it, and hopefully I will get some insight soon.

I have been really down lately. And scapegoating all the blame on my family. They made me feel so inadequate, and I resented them for it. But, I need to take more responsibility. I'm so exhausted, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I could use all the prayers anyone has to give.

On another note, if anyone even reads this....I will be going home this weekend for a couple of days. Owasso-ites, give me a call and lets catch up.

*Drool

2005-05-15T19:10:00.000-07:00

Yay for eye candy.

FINALS WEEK!

2005-05-10T12:16:00.000-07:00

Yay for studying in the wee (3a.m.) hours of the morning in the library...
I think I accomplished the following:

1.Understand manifest and latent functions in education
2.Played paperfootball with Chris
3.Follow the depersonalization of medicine
4.Listened to an entire mix cd while adding my own percussion excerpts with my pencil.
5.Study demography and how it relates to environmental sociology
6.Draw a picture of myself with my favorite safari animal...which just happens to be a dog? (inside joke)

All in all, a very productive night.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Men

2005-05-09T00:52:00.000-07:00

I never thought of myself as a man-basher. But recent occurences have led me to believe, try not to believe, believe, give another chance, believe, try one more final time, and believe once again -uncompromisingly- that men are above all just nuisances, and nothing more than complicated and sometimes dangerously hurtful playthings. Screw you if you respond otherwise. Its my freakin journal. I can rant if i want.

Some people who back me up on this view:

"Between men and women there is no friendship possible. There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no friendship." -Oscar Wilde

*sigh, this is true. Like in When Harry Met Sally, Harry makes the point there can be no friendship.

"The more I know about men the more I like dogs." - Gloria Allred

*someone had to say it. hell yeah girl!

"I refuse to consign the whole male sex to the nursery. I insist on believing that some men are my equals." - Brigid Brophy

*you can believe all you want (believe me ahahaha) i've tried. it aint gonna change nothing! (okie accent adds to seriousness)

Face it.

2005-05-05T17:12:00.000-07:00

Pretend to be whoever you want to be,
but one of these days everyone will see
you scapegoat the blame.
You can't hide your indescretions forever,
so accidentally I became the lever,
of distruction to your name.
You can't take back the fact,
you are the one that broke our pact,
stop playing this foolish game.
You can hate me with all the bitterness in your heart,
the jealousy and paranoia doomed us from the start,
you're all I had and thats a shame.

Hookey

2005-05-03T15:02:00.000-07:00

Migraines and I are like this (*crosses fingers in makeshift symbol of closeness and/or friendship). Thus goes my morning:

1.Woke up to alarm 7:30
2.Sat up
3.Grumbled something unintelligible
4.Smoothed out Marvin the Martian pajamas
5.Made an attempt to stand
6.Fell back and grasped head
7.Swore under breath
8.Dialed library
9.Yelled "TO HELL WITH YOU!"

BAH HUMBUG!

-

2005-04-30T09:30:00.000-07:00

Why can we never do anything, at the most important moments?

i wish i were anywhere else.

2005-04-27T18:34:00.000-07:00

NO, I wish i were here...

where i am only a short trip by jeep, a half-days 4-wheeler ride, and a packed lunch away from being alone here...

my paradise...

i actually carved the name of my first love (most likely illegally) on a fallen dead log under the waterfall to the right and in the distance. aren't you a luck boy... forever remembered by mother nature in Shangri-la.

"Later...?"

2005-04-20T22:25:00.000-07:00

I have determined that I do not like goodbyes. I'm sure everyone is thinking, who does? Unless, of course, its that annoying telemarketer on the phone or your aunt Edna that won't stop harrassing you about finding someone and getting married before your body falls apart. But, I am not average on my degree of dislike.... I DREAD them. I guess its from my former experience with goodbyes all being negative...ie...
Boyfriends leaving town...
boyfriends leaving state...
boyfriends leaving country...
friends leaving town...
etc...

Now, most human beings that have an attachment to someone would want to say their farewells. I- on the other hand- would much rather just not acknowledge their leaving at all. I don't want any stupid goodbye hug! I want you to stay, so obviously a hug isn't going to suffice. And then, there is the dreaded awkward, "so, yeah...i guess this is goodbye," your whole relationship with that person then flashes before your eyes (i'm sure much like death) and sadness ensues...

Then to top it off they usually add a "Later!" or a "Take care," cause there isn't really any appropriate expression for what is happening. Both so heartless and unsentimental, and might I add untrue. Afterall, there will most likely be no 'seeing of them later.' They get busy with their new lives, find new friends/ girlfriends, and are never heard from again (with a few minor exceptions.)

So, my point is that I would rather just pretend you aren't leaving; and remember the last time we hung out, instead of that fake goodbye. No more tears and fears. I will be blissfully ignorant of your leaving me. Its happened too much, I won't allow it anymore. You can't promise me you will call, write, or even remember me...but I can promise you I won't ever forget.

Much ado about nothin...

2005-04-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

My recent life revolves around maintaining two jobs, and going to school. Thats...pretty much...it. Boring eh?

Its the little things that count i suppose. Could things perhaps be starting to look up for me? Maybe.
I think the horrors are just at a standstill.

Sunday afternoon was spent lounging by the pool, and studying. Yesterday, Sarah and I rode our bikes to the softball game and ate some 50 cent hotdogs and drinks, and my best friend from high school called me last night for a chat. That was very refreshing. I'm trying to appreciate all the simple joys.

A big disagreement came up at the apartment recently involving lying and disrespect. Hopfully that has blown over now, because I really hate being the mediator, especially when you have no idea how to help.

I have compiled a list of my present likes and dislikes, things I intend on either avoiding or taking part in.
Likes:
Spring Afternoons by the pool/lake
Netflix
Double stacked oatmeal cookies and rootbeer floats
Having the time to push 'snooze' button more than once
Long talks with old friends, and new ones
compilation cds
finishing artwork
fitting into size five pants again

Dislikes:
Two jobs and school (ex) today working 8-4 and 6-11
Riding bike uphill with heavy backpack, against head wind
taking out the trash
studying for three tests in one week
friends fighting in front of you, and both wanting you to take sides
awkward talks with parents
having no spending cash
windy oklahoma days after taking time to fix hair

A Tribute

2005-04-13T19:55:00.000-07:00

This is my tribute to the most wonderful/brilliant/enjoyable "expression" of affection, and human invention. Damn its been a long time. I think I'm like Scarlet O'Hara...I should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how. Have fun trying to guess all the films...some are easy....others not....

My challenge to you all...kinda like homework in "Fight Club," is to spontaneously grab someone and kiss them. GO FOR IT!

Turn that frown upside down.

2005-04-12T19:01:00.000-07:00

There is nothing like some mindless light-hearted banter to make your *explitive* day better.

Melinator16: i never said i was not okay. im happy as a hello kitty doll on crack.
Melinator16: i think im going to sell my virginity on Ebay.
Melinator16: you think i would get much?
Melinator16: the upside would be this nifty pin.
Melinator16: http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=2036&item=6170226615&rd=1
SoonerPride777: lol
Melinator16: hmm i wonder if they have t shirts
SoonerPride777: and yes, I imagine you'd go for a bundle :-P
Melinator16: OH THEY DO HAVE BUMPER STICKERS!
Melinator16: my "I SOLD MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL" sticker is looking a little lonely.
SoonerPride777: lol, I never noticed that sticker!
Melinator16: maybe if i put a picture of me clothed i might be able to break even for the condoms i will have to buy. a nude picture might break me.
SoonerPride777: entirely not true!
Melinator16: thats cause im joshin you
SoonerPride777: lol, I know
Melinator16: i could sell each body part one at a time. might make more that way...
SoonerPride777: dibs on your left leg! :-P
Melinator16: the right is better. go for it
SoonerPride777: haha
Melinator16: or perhaps lucy or betty?
SoonerPride777: do I get a bonus if I buy both?
Melinator16: *names for my breasts*
SoonerPride777: lucy and betty?
SoonerPride777: oh, lol!
SoonerPride777: I figure they'll go first, no way I'd ever make enough money to buy them in time :-P
Melinator16: yeah if you buy both i will throw in some lotion to keep them in good condition.
SoonerPride777: haha, sweetness
Melinator16: hmmm....all the possibilities.....
SoonerPride777: no fair
Melinator16: you wanna know how i remember which breast is named what?
SoonerPride777: lol, how's that?
Melinator16: aleft and lucy.
Melinator16: "l"
SoonerPride777: (a picture might help your description :-P)
SoonerPride777: lol, I see
Melinator16: one in various stages of undress i suppose
SoonerPride777: hmmm....
SoonerPride777: oh yeah, no fair, if you run out of money someone will always pay to see a beautiful woman (I think the College of Art pays $9/hr for models ), but I'm just outta luck!
Melinator16: oh god. my body is one of those you must see naked in the dark, and for a few seconds at a time only.
SoonerPride777: *bangs head against keyboard* plkasdjl;kanvl;akvnkl;aj sdfpalsdfh
Melinator16: is that really what came out?
SoonerPride777: lol!
Melinator16: you know in some language that mean something like "i'm a dirty whore"
SoonerPride777: I am! I just don't get enough action to prove it :-P
Melinator16: hmmm. wait till those legs arrive. lots can be done...
SoonerPride777: lol
SoonerPride777: bleh, I procrastinated, now i gotta write an entire paper tonight....senioritis is deadly, I tell ya!
Melinator16: HEY ME TOO!
SoonerPride777: I'll do yours if you do mine!
SoonerPride777: wait...that sounded alot dirtier than it should have....
SoonerPride777: O:-)
Melinator16: haha, OH BRING IT ON!
Melinator16: wait can i handle yours?
Melinator16: or is it too hard?
SoonerPride777: oh, it's hard, and long
SoonerPride777: but it's gotta be done, and you gotta do what you gotta do!
Melinator16: *and im spent*
SoonerPride777: lol

I wish some dreams came true....

2005-04-11T10:19:00.000-07:00

So, recently I have been having really vivid dreams. Saturday night the dream involved me drowning by a huge tidal wave....which was horrifying. But, last night's dream made up for it big time. I was back in Owasso to pick up this package that someone told me would be arriving for me anonymously. A huge semi dropped by and left this.... for me to cruise around town :)

*Drool.....*

This is a concept motorcycle made by dodge I saw on like the discovery channel the other day, hence the reason I am dreaming about it. Here are some specs to let you know exactly how cool of a dream this was: The Tomahawk is a viper V-10 based motorcycle, 500 horsepower engine with four wheels beneath it. The engine breathes through twin throttle bodies mounted right up front. It was reported to have cost Chrysler $100,000 to build. It can reach 60 mph in about 2.5 seconds, and is topped at about 400 mph! Each pair of wheels is separated by a few inches and each wheel has an independent suspension. These four wheels are needed in order to handle the power coming from the engine...

*why, oh why did I have to wake up?*

Is happiness achievable?

2005-04-06T21:10:00.000-07:00

Is been brought up quite frequently lately that I haven't been myself. That I don't look as happy as I usually am. Well, to tell you the truth I haven't been for quite some time, but wait... was I ever? Or was I just content? Now, hang in there, this isn't a rant; just a simple revelation. Here comes the rhetorical question for everyone:

Have any of you ever really/truly been happy?

Now, I'm not talking the -Oh, thats funny- or the -That makes me glad for a little bit- kind of happy. I'm talking the definite and lasting happiness. Aren't we all just waiting for it? I mean as a child we are so certain that happiness will arrive with our 16th birthday and the ability to drive. Then that passes, and we are certain in high school that happiness will come when we get to college. That passes, and as a college student we dream of the perfect job. Then when we get in the job market we assume happiness will come with a family. When we have a family we look forward to retirement and our kids being out of the house... what comes next? Death!?!

Aren't we always waiting on happiness to come?
Do we ever achieve it?
Will any of us ever really be happy?
Or is this all some cruel joke, like Sarah brought up tonight?

Maybe its just my realist tendencies, but I'm more inclined to believe that everything could....in fact....be....pointless.

Now, all I have to do is "WAIT"and see if someone or something can change my mind.

....sigh.....

Our story wasn't an elaborate one....

2005-04-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

I knew it started getting serious
when your stuff was lying around.
I didn't mind our things mingling
as long as you knew that I didn't intend
on getting my heart broken twice
this year.
I feared that if your things
did find a place in my chaotic life,
it would have been forever.
And If I got used to your arm
draped across my chest while I slept,
and your (non-existant) snoring,
than you couldn't have just taken them away,
one day.
All the hours spent cradling your head
against my heart, while you listened to its drum
and I touseled your hair, slipped by.
Though neither of us had much to say,
I stayed patient for you, and
kept silent for you to one day talk to me.
Romance is a dream, I am real, and what I offered
was too.
I could give no fairytale, but why,
was a truthful story of a boy and a girl,
man and woman, so unappealing?
Thank god this book has many sequels,
and your character isn't necessary
for a happy ending.